Me . Myself . I

decision

2011-07-31T04:47:00.000-07:00

i know it's been sooo long since i had my last blog here, and i just can help but open this site, and burst out my feelings regarding myself. i feel so mad that my decisions are becoming my my worst nightmares. i know for a certain that my decision for the present is what i really wanted, but hoe come that once you have already decided what you want, the negativity of what you have decided come upon crawling unto you and you cannot do something about it, which makes it irreversble. i learned that whatever happened unto you is the cause of what you have done and there is no one to be blame but yourself. choices were given unto you at once, and all you have to do is to choose whether it is a yes or a no. whatever consequences it may give you, you dont have the right to blame other people. haist, i don't know what to do.. :(

Mental Block-out

2010-12-08T19:26:00.000-08:00

i hate that when you ready yourself in the question that have been spilled unto you, and you already composed yourself on what you should answer...then by the time comes that you already need to give your answer...what you have prepared became useless...even single word from what you have written in your mind was blown away by your anxiety!

I hate it!

For just a couple of minutes, your mind became useless...even though how much you think of words to come out on your mind, to answer the question that you thought that would be easy to answer...Nothing, your mouth doesn't even want to speak..

I hate it! I hate it! I super hate it!

:'(

-ciao-

Today

2010-12-02T20:43:00.000-08:00

"Today is another day"

Leave your yesterday's thought behind for today is another day for us to make our yesterday's mistakes right.

This day is made for us

to make our dreams come into life
to make new friends
to make new memories

-ciao-

Ohh Please.

2010-12-02T19:19:00.000-08:00

Why is it that I can't get out of my head?

I don't know who you are, what you do, what are the things that are vital to you. But why is it that by just knowing your name...make's me feel being with you in my near future?

Oh common, it makes me more irritated that whenever I see my future I see you, not knowing what is really there in your head, if I am also included in your plans.

Hey, how could I stop this feeling, or is it just an imagination of my inner ego, wanting to be with you, to talk to you, to know more about you or is it just a selfish act wanting to consider you to be someone you are not supposed to be.

Hey, let me finish it by saying that you make me crazy just thinking of the reasons behind this so many questions that keep bugging my head.

And OH PLEASE, please Mr., kindly do me a huge favor... Please do something that would make me feel that your not worth of the time I spend picturing you and myself in the future. But if you have decided that it's worth having a try... Please inform me as soon as possible, before i loose my hope, in the story I have written on my mind... The story of you and me...

-ciao-

MY first blog

2010-12-02T03:47:00.000-08:00

What should I write? A problem to be solved while I am in the process of writing MY first blog. It was hard for me to think what I will and what I should write for I know that this will be the foundation of what will I be writing in the near future.

Ohh, let's not think of the future first, let us go back to the start...to the beginning...to THE FIRST...

May i just ask you guys, why is it that everyone values their "FIRSTS"?

First cry from the newborn child, first word that came out from a baby, his/her first walk, first day in school, first crush or even first love, first kiss, first job ...

May I know what is their common denominator besides the word FIRST?..

Well for me, the answer would be that they are so memorable that they can't get out of the head of the individuals involved and those who were there to witness it.

For me, the reason why first become so memorable, because it molds the person on what he will become. It dictates us and forms us to be what we choose to be. What I mean is, OUR FIRST is our training ground, giving us all the details we need, answering questions that formed in our mind. It is the basic answers to all our questions. It marks our existence in life and teach us to hold on, to learn to look back to our first which may give us the great advise worth living for.

FIRSTs are not always right, we have to admit it...we sometimes choose not to be right for we don't have the basis of right or wrong until we find it on the process of searching and finding ourselves.

So much for firsts...let's talk it some other time...I hope you do enjoy "MY FIRST" and will be able to be back on my blog for my 2nd? 3rd? or for my infinite blog store for you...

Have a Blessed Day Everyone!

-ciao-